How Big Is Your Hour Glass?

My first day back to work... ended up being only a half day. I did quite a bit of stuff though... and everyone was glad to see me back. I am thankful that today was a trial day. I wasn't scheduled for a full shift... because they had rearranged this weeks schedule and had enough coverage. They were so good about letting me make the decision as to whether or not I thought I could make it... and for how long. Our weeks start on Saturday. I was going to try and do a few hours tomorrow... but I got home from a trip to town and there was a note on my front door from my department manager (and friend) saying that they want me to stay at home and get rested up... because Saturday they have me scheduled for a full time week. I will be fine next week. I am willing it to be that way... and praying my heart out about it. Walmart may be kind of quirky in alot of ways... but they are really good to their employees that care about their jobs and try to make a difference.

I was being kinda whiney yesterday to God. I was like... "Why... Why don't we receive the things we pray about?... What are we doing wrong?... Why does it take so long for our prayers to be answered?... whine whine whine.. sniffle sniffle sniffle... woe is me!"

Well... did I get myself set straight! God always makes sure I "hear" whatever it is I need to hear! Always kinda makes me feel like a little bitty soldier all covered in armor that is too big and clanky... and my helmet hanging off to one side because it is way too huge for my head... standing in the palm of God's hand... while this great big God towers in front of my face... he raises his hand to lift me up so that we are looking at each other eye to eye... and says... "Lookey here Suzii... listen to me will ya? You know I love ya... now... what is it going to take for you to just trust in me?"

Sometimes I hear from God himself. ((If... by the way... you have never heard the voice of God... and you are thinking..."That is crazy... people don't "hear" God's voice".... well... I have news for ya! When you hear God's voice... you know it could be the voice of no other. I hope daily to hear from God personally. I would love to just sit and have a conversation with him! Let him explain to me the mysteries of the universe... Wow!))~~Anyways~~Sometimes I hear from God... through other people.

I love to listen to Jesse Duplantis preach. I go to his website often. I like to watch his webcasts and his weekly programs. He is so good! It frustrates me so much when I cannot view because of some stupid atmospheric stuff. Sometimes the video will skip... or the voice will play and the video will stop... or the video will play and the voice cannot be understood. On days like that... I yell at the devil! I have actually banged my forehead on my keyboard and prayed for my computer!! Then... there will be days... that the video and voice are clearer than my t.v.!! Yesterday was "clearly" my day to "hear". I really suggest you go there sometime if you haven't before. Go to his homepage... click on television... broadcast center... then you can choose from webcasts or programs. The one I listened to last night was a past webcast from April 24, 2005. I have been trying to see this for a couple months now.

If you don't mind... I would like to post the notes that I took as I watched it. I will just list them in order as I took them. It really touched my heart... but mostly... it answered A LOT of questions I have been asking.

*Luke 7:14-23
*Believe the impossible.
*The devil tries to steal away your focus when you feel defeated.
*DON'T BEND to the pressure of TIME.
*Satan uses "time" as a tool to bring doubt.
*You think you aren't receiving because of lack of faith or an abundance of unbelief.
*Don't question things that don't need to be questioned.
*Is God not working quick enough for you?
*Again... Do not bend to the pressure of time.
*When you understand time... it makes no difference how long it takes.
*God will make you safe and secure after the conflict. A calm is coming.
*Eccl. 3:1
*The sky of spiritual life is not always cloudless.
*Time... waiting... makes you critical of God's word.
*It doesn't matter how long you have to wait... you WILL get what you have asked for in prayer.
*Human nature has great faith in doubt and unbelief.
*Do not lost faith... Do not doubt.
*Don't get mad at God.
*Don't be developed in unbelief.
*Concentration is a must. Concentrate on an answer... not a problem.
*Confuse the devil. If someone tells you "You have cancer and are going to die." Instead of saying... "Woe is me. Boo hoo.. etc." say... "Yahooooooo! I am going to heaven in six months! I get to be with Jesus soon!" That will confuse the devil because his trick made you happy... he doesn't want you to be happy... so he will take his cancer and go home."
*Again... concentration is a must.
*Hebrews 10:23
*Do not accept defeat.
*Hold fast to the faith without wavering.
*Again... DO NOT BEND TO THE PRESSURE OF TIME.
*Ephesians 6
*Don't whine to God when the clouds are around you.
*(The verse that says something to the effect of... run and not be weary... walk and not faint....)
*Faint = fall back on nothing.
*Pray = fall back on God.
*Inward principle must take place of outward restraint.
*((Then he talked about diets...ahemm))... once you're on one... everyone wants to take you out for dinner! (obedience.. key word)
*Power of self command must be developed.
*Things will get easier.
*A man's soul is made up of thoughts, desires, actions, and determinations.
*In the soul lies the power to make it or break it.
*Let not time be a stumbling block... but a stepping stone to your overflow.
*John 20:29
*The recipe of patience cooks out the liquid of time and all that is left are the wants of life.
*Hebrews 10:36
*1 Cor 15:58
*Again... Don't bend to the pressure of time. Sometimes we are not quite old enough for what we ask for.
*Do you know OF God... or Do you KNOW God?
*Is time defeating you?
*Do you need some good joy days?
*Tough times don't last... but tough people do.

My notes do not do justice to the message he preached. I haven't really had a chance to study, pray and meditate on what I have learned... but you can bet my heart is ready!

I am ready! And... I will be patiently waiting for all that God has for me. I will pray continuously in my heart and spirit. I will eagerly wait to hear and learn more about God and his awesomeness! I will continue to try and uplift and encourage others! I will continue to do all that I can for God... until the day I finally get the opportunity to stand in front of him personally!

Thank you for coming to my site. Thank you for allowing me to get this stuff outta my heart and mind. :)