Newness...

I have put a little bit of personality to my blog. I enjoyed myself! It took me 5 plus hours to find pictures that I liked... and try to make the "html" stuff work right. My husband even liked it! I always ask him... "Do you ever read my posts?" His reply is... "Do they have pictures?" So... to appease my hubby a little bit... I added some really cool pictures. Kind of dusted the cobwebs off the walls of my blog. Splashed some color here and there.

Now, my daughter, wants me to add some things to her site as well. I showed her mine and she is like... "That's cool mom... when are you gonna add those two pictures to mine that I have wanted you to add for a long time now?" So, I guess I need to play around with her blog for a while. I wish I had a weekend day off once in a while... then we could do it together... kind of an all day "mother and daughter" thing that she has been buggin' me about. I suppose I will have to take her up to the bus stop tomorrow... (she is presently buggin' me about that right now!)

I have had a new... (this is my favorite phrase that I made up a few years ago)... "phathomystic openage" with my writing lately. "Phathomystic openage" means where once there was no knowledge of some certain thing in your brain... then... like a big phathomystic openage opens up in your head... and you all of a sudden "get it!" **If you understand what I just described to you... you had a phathomystic openage!**

Before when I would write about the things that were to go into my book... they didn't link up right. They didn't flow. I have notebooks upon notebooks filled with sections of things. Then... all of a sudden... about a week ago or so... I had these wonderful "God things" happen in my brain. It is like I am very aware about every thought in my "file cabinet"... **file cabinet being the places in my mind where I sort and store all of the information and stuff that I will be writing about**

I was beginning to think that my file cabinet was locked. I know that God wants me to write this book. He told me so. He even told me what it was going to be about. I know that I have talked about this before. Imagine... being virtually a nobody... (well... I always have been somebody in God's eyes)... but you know what I mean? Like... "Why me, God? What makes me so special that I should write you this book?" Alot goes on in your mind when God tells you what you are GOING to do. I almost used to start to panic. Like...."Oh no... I am going to forget something!" Or... "I won't know what it is I am supposed to know!" Or... "God... WHY ME!" ((Oh... I already said that!)) You know what I mean?

A while back I read a book. (Yes! I can read!) I read "The Dream Giver" by Bruce Wilkenson. ((It is an awesome book by the way...)) After I read the book... I knew I needed to give my dream of writing this book for God... back to God. (If you read the book... you will understand more fully what I am talking about).... (Read the book!!) Anyway... I prayed about it... and... in prayer... I ended up giving my dream of writing that book for God back to him.

At first I felt extreme relief. Like... "It's in your hands now God. I cannot mess it up." Then... I started blogging. I needed a place to keep writing SOMETHING... ANYTHING. Then... after a while... I started to feel like God was leaving me out of my dream. I started the panic mode again. I would pray and ask God... "Was that dream really mine? Or was I just imagining it?" Then... I felt like..."God... can I have it back yet?????? Can I? Can I? PLEASE?" Then... I just waited. I knew that if that dream that I was given was truly from God... in HIS time... It would be given back to me to finish.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. As the rain and the snow come down from heaven, and do not return to it without watering the earth and making it bud and flourish, so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater, so is my word that goes out from my mouth: It will not return to me empty, but will accomplish what I desire and achieve the purpose for which I sent it." Isaiah 55:8-11

So... that is where I am at. Gently and ever so confidently... God is giving me back my dream. In a whole new way I am seeing what it is he wants me to write about. It all has a new depth... a new "phathomystic openage". It is amazing the feelings that I have... knowing.... KNOWING... that the dream WAS actually to be mine. The feelings I have of God being with me every minute of every day. My mind sorts differently... it organizes differently... and the words flow differently. Jesus truly does push my pen.

I hope that each and every one of you have the opportunity to do something wonderful for Jesus! He gave his very life on the cross for us. What is it that God has been asking you to do for Him? What in your life... will honor Him. When you get to heaven... will you have done all that you were intended to do? I pray every day for blessings in the lives of those I encounter. I seem to pray constantly in my mind... and I feel constantly Jesus by my side. I pray that you all have a great big "phathomystic openage" and God is in it!

Many blessings to you all.