Goodness Comes In Many Small Things...

I cannot begin to describe the feelings I have been having lately. I visited with my friend, Thelma, the other night on the phone. We decided to write down every positive thing that happens... so that we can see the good changes that are happening in our lives. I have not been so faithful as to write them down every day... but I think about them constantly.

When our minds get all caught up in the garbage of life... we end up feeling as though we are in the dump... literally. Everything stinks... everything is gross... and we trudge through every day like we are rotting away for the buzzards to pick at us.

Well... just the fact that we decided to pay closer attention to the good things that happen... has really changed me the past few days. I think the word that Thelma thought was just for her... was for me also. It really is good to simplify things in our lives.

In the past couple of days... I have only needed to take half of the amount of pain medications and such... as I had been. I have made an effort to pay very close attention to what my body is telling me. I know that taking less medications may seem trivial... but... for me... it is HUGE! I am counting it as a blessing that I am in the process of recieving a complete healing! AMEN!

I have also been able to move around in bed during my sleep. That may sound silly to some of you... but for the past several very long and exhausting months of complete and excrutiating pain... to move around in bed was NOT an option! I was lucky... for so long... to even get out of bed without assistance. I have been sleeping so much better. That may seem small... but when you are totally emotionally, physically, and spiritually drained of life itself... it is actually a very big thing.

I can get up off of the couch... by myself. Small? No! The simplest things in life that most people take for granted... were almost impossible for me to do for such a long time.

During all this time... I still managed to work in a fast paced job... full time. There were times I could have crawled out the door after the day was done... but I never cried until I got to my car. God is so good... and so awesomely faithful to us!

There are so many small little things... every day... that bring a new goodness to my life. It is a newness. Slow at coming... but it is still on it's way. I cannot see it in it's completeness yet... YET! I am holding on to the little bit of faith that I have that God's perfect will for my life... is on it's way... and my trials and sufferings will be a testimony of God's love and compassion.

Even when your faith is small... goodness can come of it. There have been days in my recent past that I have felt like I could have enough faith left to use as an eyelid for a flea. But the bible says..."...I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."~Matthew 17:20

As I look back on those times... I can see that I have actually been able to come through what I thought at the time... was going to be impossible to get through. I have been there many times in my past... and I can see now that the Lord was with me... and when I could not walk with my own feet... He used His.

Be blessed.