Coffee, Coffee, Coffee... Cappuccino... Java... Latte'... Mocha Grande... Triple Shot Praline Twist Udder Delight....

You Are a Cappuccino

You're fun, outgoing, and you love to try anything new. However, you tend to have strong opinions on what you like. You are a total girly girly at heart - and prefer your coffee with good conversation. You're the type that seems complex to outsiders, but in reality, you are easy to please

What Kind of Coffee Are You?

Ok... guess what... I LOVE THESE LITTLE QUIZZES! Yep... this one fits me! I found this one at Vicki's ~ "Windows to My Soul".

I have had quite alot happen since I posted last. To answer some questions that I had swirling around in my mind lately was my quest. I have had some "phathomystic openages"~((that is a phrase that rolled out of my mouth one day when I was trying to describe when your light bulb in your brain seems a little brighter than usual... and it allows you to understand and see more clearly things previously dark and mysterious to your own little place of knowledge))... ((It's a Suzii phrase))... just go with it!!

We... Rich, Hannah and I... did actually get memberships to the one of the nicer indoor pools here in town... and yes.... we have actually gone swimming! YaY! I must tell you however... and this you may not believe... but it is true! Fat people don't sink! As a matter of fact... we just bob around like a little floatie! Once my butt starts making it's way to the surface... I have to really flail around to get me back upright!!!! It is so funny! I seem to do really well on my back and using my arms... to get me going... so I bob around backwards in the pool. IF... however... I wanted to swim/bob forward... I would probably drown! My butt would force my face into the water... and I would NEVER get upright again!!! My dear loving husband told me to get some ankle weights!!! Oh praise God and share the laughter with me here!

It is quite a wonderful feeling to be a 450 pound woman and be absolutely weightless!!!!!! I encourage anyone... skinny... in-betweenie... or fat... GO SWIMMING! Even if you are in pain... if your bones and muscles and joints feel like blow torches being burned deep into them constantly... GO! Even if for a brief moment while you are in the water... the precious feeling of not hurting and having absolutely NO weight being put on those sore and painful places... is worth it!

Now... I bet you are thinking... OH my! Where would someone that huge get a bathing suit? Lemme tell ya... I swim fully clothed. When I called about the membership fees... I told the lady on the other end that I am a very large person. I asked her if there were any restrictions on what one could wear in the pool. I told her that it would be more traumatic for the other people there to see me half nekkid than to have me wear long cotton pants and an shirt to cover me. I laughed and she felt a little more comfortable with my question. She asked her manager. She came back to the phone and said that as long as I didn't wear "fuzzy clothes such as sweat pants... or freyed jeans... that it would be fine". Jeans? I haven't worn a pair of jeans in twenty years. But what I am getting at is this... DON'T MISS OUT ON THINGS YOU LOVE DOING... JUST BECAUSE OF YOUR SIZE! ((Or whatever else may be holding you back)) They were happy to be able to accommodate me.

**And... if any skinny person in the pool has a problem with it... they can just leave... and we can have the pool to ourselves!!**

I have gained so much confidence since "Just doing it!" I was so terrified the first day... I thought I would die of humiliation. People stared... and I just stared back. If they don't like what they see... they can close their eyes! At least I am not just giving up on life.

I have also had my echocardiogram since I last posted. Yesterday... as a matter of fact. I have not had the results from any doctor looking at it yet.... and the guy that did the echo... isn't really supposed to say what he "saw" or "thought the results might be"... but ***UNOFFICIALLY***... he whispered to me that he thought that everything looked pretty good... ***unofficially***. Also... unofficially... my ejection fraction is 70%. An ejection fraction is the "squeezability" of your heart muscle. Before my husband, Rich, had his heart transplant... his got down to 7% to 10%. A "normal" persons ejection fraction is 75-80%. I will take an "unofficial" 70%. It really takes alot of worry off my mind. It gives me a peace like I could never begin to explain to you. Kind of like a new page added to my book... blank... pure... white... crisp... and ready to be written on!

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV

By faith in the name of Jesus, this man whom you see and know was made strong. It is Jesus' name and the faith that comes through him that has completely healed him, as you can all see. Acts 3:16 NIV

Things are good, deep in the heart of Suzii. I have a renewed hope for the future... and a little extra bit of joy in my soul today.