Amazing Grace...

I've been asking the Lord lately what my place to be is in this world... be it at my job or just my mere existence on earth. There has been so much turmoil and stress. I have been so close to putting in for a transfer to a different department at work just to get away from who was causing the stress. In my last post... you will see that I had made up my mind to pray for the situation. I know in my heart... that I have done nothing wrong. I have been through a large "growing up" in my turning my eyes to Jesus for his guidance and comfort.

People always tell you to "give it to the Lord"... "Put it in God's hands, he can take care of it far better than we can"... but... there is a trick to doing that! Sure... it is easy to say... "It's yours Lord... please take it and make it all better". Much easier said than done.

I have learned that you have to feel the actual "giving" it to Him in your heart first... before He will actually take it from you. I believe that with all my heart. Words from the mouth are just words... but words spoken from the depths of your heart to God's ears are far more than words... they are honored and when they are sealed with the presence of the Holy Spirit's touch... they go straight to God's heart.

The Lord knows the difference between the two. He knows when we are serious... and he knows when we are just rambling. I have felt Him know the difference in just the past two days.

It is really hard for me to explain how intense the stressful situation at work has been. I have really had to dig in deep to figuring out just how to honestly rely on God for my strength. I had no strength left of my own. None. Not one single ounce. I am not talking physical strength... I am talking spiritual strength. I have sobbed to my Savior from depths beyond human knowledge... from the place where words do not exist.

I have questioned my own existence on this earth. The feeling of having absolutely no spiritual strength makes one feel less that an speck of dust. That feeling cuts deep into the spirit of your soul from where you were created... and it puts you right in front of the Creator... naked and alone... and He holds out his hands and says... "Come to me my child... and I will wrap you in my very own garments and make you whole. I will protect you and give you my own strength. You are my precious soul and you will be victorious in all things you do. I have waited so long for you to realize how much I love you."

He is so right.

Seek out your Creator... your Savior... your Heavenly Father. Find Him before it's too late. There is so much peace and comfort and security in His love. Allow His strength to build your spirit... so you can fight through the drudgery of this earth with honor... and fill yourself with His grace and mercy so that you may touch and inspire your fellow human beings.

From the Heart of Suzii... touched by the Spirit of the Lord.