My Supervisor Is An Oyster!

I decided rather than to hire a hitman to take out my irritating supervisor... I would pray for her. God knows how hard that was for me to do. Isn't that horrible? Why do we let things get to us so much before we realize that not only do WE need to ask for forgiveness for letting hatred soil our hearts... but we need to pray for OTHERS who need Gods love in their own hearts.

Imagine going through life not knowing how the unconditional true love of God feels. It must be a cold and lonely feeling. I have felt a burden in my heart for my irritating supervisor for quite a while now. She glares at me with daggers... and I feel them as they puncture my heart. It is almost as if something in her knows that I said a prayer for her to come to the Lord. Maybe something in her feels a little uncomfortable. I know that I sure feel uncomfortable! It is hard to pray for the soul of someone that you cannot stand! I honestly think it is easier to pray for her than it is to fight against it.

As I have spoke of before in some of my previous posts... even though I do not have anything in common with the kind of person she is... I do need to love her as a human being... and see her the way that the Lord sees her. I need to also find in my own heart the same kind of love that God has for her.

The devil sure wants me to forget about her... and not care about her soul. The part of me that feels harrassed by her all the time would love to just say... "Forget it! I don't care where you end up!"... But the part of me that loves the Lord says... Who am I to say that she doesn't deserve the same eternal joy and happiness and love of God that I want for myself and others... We are all God's children... we all have the rights to his love and the rights to have the opportunity to inherit the kingdom of God!

At the end of every day I feel completely beat up. Not physically beat up... but spiritually and emotionally whipped!

I keep thinking... "God... please tell me that I didn't ask you for a soul to help bring to you. Please tell me that she is not the one. Ok, God... so maybe I did ask... but why her? Couldn't you make it someone that I could at least get along with? You realize God... that this will be a tough one. I'm not sure if I can do it. I can't even talk to her at work! What makes you think I will be able to talk to her about YOU! She is the farthest thing from being Godly that I can think of!"

Then... yesterday... I thought of an ugly, slimey, greenish grey, snot-like oyster covered in a hard, sharp shell. Yep... sounds like my irritating supervisor! Then I thought about what oysters can do... or more so... what God can create inside an oyster. If a piece of sand... (which by the way, God created each piece of sand uniquely)... if that sand gets inside an oyster... it causes an irritation. From the outside of the oyster... you cannot tell anything is different. I bet the oyster can tell there is something in there not quite right though! Over a period of time... the sand becomes a beautiful pearl... but no one even knows it's there until the oyster opens up.

Perhaps... my IRRITATING supervisor... is an oyster. Perhaps her inner irritation is the prayer that I said for her in regards to wanting her soul to belong to God. Perhaps... that one prayer is changing who she is on the inside. Perhaps... no one will see the pearl inside her until God is ready for it to be seen.

I guess instead of wanting to hire a hitman... maybe I should just rely on the "BIG MAN" upstairs to do HIS work on her. Then... she may become the most precious jewel in the crown of souls... Go Figure!

"Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity."~Colossians 3:12-14