STUFF

I thought I would stop by here and let you all know what has been going on! I have been busy working... of course. I have also been focusing alot on my book. I feel like there is definitely some "movement" going in the right direction where my thoughts for the book are going. I have done alot of organizing of my thoughts... which... by the way... are alot less organized than one would think.

I believe I was trying to hard... for a long time... to "get it right". There is no right or wrong. It is all from my heart. The definite "right" if you want to call it that... is God's blessing... and the message that is supposed to be given... will be.

I have started another blog. A place where only I can go and write till my fingers fall off. I also have more notebooks started. My goodness... I have caused alot of trees to suffer!

We went across the mighty Ohio river yesterday to visit Rich's mom. We went and did a little more organizing of our storage shed... and brought a small load of stuff over. Eventually...(hopefully next month) before the snow flies... I would like to have all of our stuff out of the storage unit and in our house. That will save us a little bit of money. It's been difficult to get it all going in the right direction... but we are headed that way.

Our little house is looking more like home. We have little remnants and treasures from our past all over the place. It is odd... you know... to have "stuff". Knowing in my mind that it is just "stuff"... you cannot take it with you when you go... and still feeling like all of the "stuff" makes our home what it is... a home. You know what though? I would run away from it all in a heart beat if God came back to take us all back home to heaven. That is where my true home is. That is where I want to be the most.

People work so hard every day... for what? Stuff. The more money you get... the more "stuff" you can get. They are busy and all stressed out over things... things that cannot truly buy happiness. I don't mean to sound morbid or anything like that... but if they were to die tomorrow before they ever opened their eyes.......... they would not get the opportunity to come back and get the deed to their house... or say... "Wait... can I take my new car?"

When you have had nothing... you appreciate everything. When you have had "stuff"... and had it taken all away from you... or circumstances fell hard on your life causing all the "stuff" to not be quite as important as it once was....... you realize that there is so much more to life. I honestly believe that if people would just slow down... and look around them... and see the emptiness in their house of stuff..... they might fill their spiritual house with the treasures that they can take with them when they leave this life.

Like I said... I have been blessed with things.... stuff... earthly treasures... but... I lost my Mama to getting a pile of "stuff". I think I would rather have my Mama back. Have you lost anything of real value? Not money value... heart value. Did Grandpa leave you a nice big house? But Grandpa isn't there to enjoy the gift of giving you the house that he worked so hard for all of his life. The gift... is from the heart. The gift... is love.

Love lasts through all space and time. I can feel my mother's love... even now... and she has been gone for seven years now. I can see her face in the memories of my heart. I can look around my house... and see the stuff that she once had. I can touch it... and feel it... and remember things about getting them. I would give them all away... for just one more hug from my Mama... to feel her arms around me... and to hear her voice say my name... to see her smile. I would be homeless... and stuffless... for just one... just one hug.

Home is where your heart is. Where is your home?