Wanting More Of God...

I want my words to speak life to myself and others. My mind thinks of all of the ways I would say things to come out positive... and my tongue fouls me up all the time. You know the saying... "You are what you eat"? Well... it is more a true statement that you are what you speak.

It is difficult sometimes to hear myself. My mouth just blurts out things... just stuff. I don't know what it is about my brain that I don't think and analyze what I say before I say it. I believe that what we say... the power of words... it is HUGE! If we feel like we have a stuffy nose... and we say... "Oh... I must be getting a cold... I feel so miserable..."....... you will feel miserable. Sometimes you do feel miserable.

But what is all the "speaking life" stuff all about?

I am a simple person. Not simple as in stupid... or unable to learn. Just simple. When I ask God stuff in prayer... I don't fluff coat things. I just talk. I am sure that God likes to just hear people talk to him. I know that the bible says stuff about asking, receiving blessings... etc. There are alot of words around it all... telling a story... a true story of real things that the Lord has for us to receive.

I believe in every word the bible has in it... although I have not read every single word there written.

What brings me to the next level?

I had a word spoken to my heart. Many years ago there were things said to me in prayer... by several different people... all saying about the same things about me and what the Lord has in store for me. I recently had a word spoken... that I have been mulling around in my heart and mind.

This is what it was... give me a listen here a second...

"The deeper things of God come for people that really search for them. The deeper things. You've gone deep but you haven't gone as deep as I want you to go. Sometimes it doesn't work out the way it's supposed to... yeah... but it isn't over yet. I want you to know that. I've heard every prayer you've ever prayed. I've kept every word you've ever spoke to me at my throne. You mark my word... Now I'll speak my word to you... It will come to pass... don't worry about time... time has nothing to do with you."

Ok... so....

How do I seek out those "deeper" things? How do I ask God to help me out here? See... I usually just tell him that he has to show me and tell me things in plain english... right in front of my face... I cannot see through all the "fluff"... so-to-speak. I have been able to speak to the Lord all my life... I feel this is different. It really shouldn't be though. I just don't want to say something dumb and mess up by saying something 'stupid'.

Good grief... that itself... sounds stupid.

I want so badly to have a deeper relationship with the Lord. I want to feel his presence all the time... as I have felt in certain times in the past. I don't want to forget what feeling his presence feels like.

When God is in the house... PEOPLE KNOW IT! I want that high speed connection with the Lord! My friend would tell me... "pray about it."... or "just read God's word".... all good... VERY good advice... but I don't want to say something stupid.

I guess since God made me... he knows that I need simplicity... to be able to discern things easily... he knows I put things right into my heart. He is in my heart. I wish he would just come and sit with me and have a cup of coffee and talk about stuff with me. I miss talking about stuff. Just typing "I miss talking about stuff"... brings a tear to my eye.

Speaking of stuff... I have alot swirling around in my mind. I've done a little more writing. My heart has several books written... my pen seems to be out of ink though. Do I have to know those... "deeper things"... before I can find my ink?

Any thoughts ???